From Frustration to Fruition
When times get really tough, sometimes I just want to pull the covers over my head until today turns to tomorrow. I experienced this feeling today but pushed myself out of bed and forced myself to stay positive even though my deadline was here and my latest book was ready but not uploading correctly.
My wifi was acting up as I tried again and again. It kept having errors which make me wonder if the file might be corrupted which would have been a big problem. So, instead of staying home sulking I forced myself to leave the house. I went to Starbucks and tried to connect to the wifi, it said I was connected but nothing was working, I couldn't even pull up a website. After about 45 minutes of trying, I asked an employee if the wifi was working and he told me it wasn't. So I went to a restaurant that my phone said had wifi, they told me it wasn't for customers.
To take my mind off things I chatted with a friend who lives in Miami. We were talking about all sorts of things including his love of caramel everything and then the Grand Canyon in depth because of a trip he is going to make with his husband, they are also going to come to LA after. We discussed places to see in LA including Universal Studios, The Chinese Theater, Runyon Canyon... The chat ended and I felt a little better to not be focusing on the things that had been frustrating me.
I talked to a friend who lives in Miami while my computer charged. We were talking about all sorts of things including his love of caramel everything and then the Grand Canyon, a trip he is going to make with his husband and then also come to LA after. We discussed places to see in LA including Universal Studios, The Chinese Theater, Runyon Canyon... The chat ended and I felt a little better to not be focusing on the things that had been frustrating me. I took it a step further and started writing in my journal about things I was grateful for and after wrote about fun things I wanted to do coming up to change my state, this further helped.
Soon, a Starbucks employee came by with samples of a new caramel drink. Being a student of the law of attraction I recognized this as a sign because my friend and I had just been talking about his love of caramel and I had thought about how tasty it is. I took a pic of the sample cup to send to my friend later and enjoyed the treat.
Then I packed up and decided to try another Starbucks to use the wifi. When I got there I turned on my computer which only had a 2% charge. I tried an outlet to charge it but my charger has been extremely temperamental lately.
A few minutes later and while getting uncomfortably close to a stranger at the communal table (sorry whoever you are) I found a seat near an outlet that my charger agreed with. My computer logged into the wifi, now was the moment of truth where I would see if it was a wifi issue or a corrupted file that was keeping my book from being published. I said a little prayer and then completely surrendered. I pressed upload and said, "it's going to work, everything is working out for me". I just put a little faith out there and completely surrendered.
I started writing this blog to talk about how good it is to just stay positive and get creative when you feel struggle or resistance in your path. Then I had the urge to check my phone and on Instagram one of my dearest friends and old roommate who recently moved to the Miami area had posted a pic of the Grand Canyon. Another sign! I had even given my other friend advice to go before noon so you see the sun shine all the way down into the canyon, this pic was just like that, you could see all the way down into the canyon, a view I had missed when I visited. When I went, I had just caught sunset which was so beautiful but I said to my friend I wanted to do the hike down and camp in the basin. My old roommate had even said, "On my list, sleeping under the stars in the desert" with the canyon pic. After seeing this, I took a screenshot to share this sign as well. There have been a lot of signs like this in my life lately which has been a wonderful reminder that the universe is always here ready and willing to give you what you desire when you let go, stop focusing on what's going wrong and decide to only think about your desire when it feels good.
After sending the pics of the two signs I saw another friend had posted a pic at the top of Runyon. If you are open to the signs and don't hide out under the covers when things get tough you will see them everywhere.
To prove my point, about letting go and focusing on feeling good. I took a break for a moment from writing this blog to check on book file I have been trying to upload and it just said, "Manuscript Uploaded Successfully"! I am so happy and had I not encountered these challenges today and last night I wouldn't have written what you are reading right now.
I share this with you to show you how powerful our minds are to shape out outer world. When things seem to be going wrong, start writing down what is going right and then appreciate your list. Don't mull over what's going wrong just release it instead and say, "Everything is always working out for me".
See the good, be the good and you will have so much GOOD in your experience.
Your formerly frustrated friend,